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I was just reading through my last few Blog entries, and was asking myself why I have been letting all the small stuff get me so upset lately. The answer did not become apparent until I happened to notice the date on my latest entry. It is now the 12th of June. That means the 15th is just around the corner. Which means the 17th is not too far behind. The 15th will be my daughters 9th Birthday. Her Birthday is always such a bittersweet day for me. I love her so much. But some days, especially on her Birthdays, it is hard for me to look at her and not cry. I wish I could just be happy on that day. But I can't. I will plaster another big smile on my face and fake my way through it until I can crawl into bed away from her eyes,and cry myself to sleep. There won't be any big party this year, which might make faking it a bit harder. When we have big parties, I can often disappear for an hour or so without anyone even noticing. Or if they do notice, they are kind enough not to ask me about it. But this year, because of every one's work and vacation schedules, there will just be a few of us. Disappearing from a party of ten is a lot more difficult than from a party of thirty or more. Anyway, if I seem a little bitchier than usual for the next week or so, I beg your forgiveness in advance. If you do not hear from me for a few days, or see me popping up on IM, it is okay. I will be back when my heart has a little healing time. For now, I just want to sleep. Goodnight.
P.S. For anyone wondering what the hell I am talking about, refer to my post http://thediaryofanangrywhitewomaninamerica.blogspot.com/2007/05/this-time-of-year.html written in May 2007.

Just rambling...

I really do not have much to write about today. I spoke with James, my plant manager about my getting three points for mistakenly calling the wrong number. He said he wanted to help me. He took me to head of personnel, a guy named Hal. Hal basically told me to "deal with it." Needless to say I am not too pleased with that answer. James however was very nice. He said he wished he could do something, and he did attempt to plead my case. Oh well, I guess I will just chalk it up to the fact that the company has such a high turnover rate that they just do not give a shit about the individual anymore. All my points roll off when I hit ninety days. I just can not be sick, or have any emergency between now and then. I will keep you posted.

Since I really have nothing else to talk about other than the fact that I missed yet another call from my Sweety, I have decided I will stick with today's movie theme and give you a list of...

MY PICKS OF THE TOP TEN MOST ROMANTIC MOVIES EVER MADE

1. An Affair To Remember (Who doesn't love Cary Grant?)
2. Braveheart (yes Braveheart...he did all that he did because they killed his wife, remember)
3. Pride and Prejudice (The newest one with Keira Knightly)
4. What Dreams May Come (Robin Williams goes through hell, literally, to be with his wife)
5. Memoirs Of A Geisha (A Beautiful story of a young girl who falls in love but is unable to act upon her feelings)
6. Anna And the King (One of my all time favorite movies, and one of the most heartbreakingly romantic.)
7. The Lake House (Stars Keanu Reeves and Sandra Bullock, do not let that stop you from seeing this truly romantic picture.)
8. Ever After (Drew Barrymore is Cinderella- all girls love Cinderella stories.)
9. Marty (A sweet film about two lonely people who find happiness together)
10. And last but certainly not least..The Bridges Of Madison County (Filmed here in Iowa, Clint Eastwood and Meryl Streep, I know what you are thinking, but trust me.. romantic.)

Okay, well maybe they aren't the most romantic movies "EVER MADE". But if you want to get lucky with your lady, play a couple of these, I promise it will work. (Well, I only actually Guarantee that they will work with me...but give it a shot.)

Worth a watch...

I spent a large part of this weekend watching movies. There were alot of them I had not seen before. I buy them, and then do not have the time to sit and watch them. So I had some catching up to do. Here are some that are worth a watch.

1. A Simple Curve
2. King Rat
3. Children Underground
4. Cabaret
5. Paris When It Sizzles
6. Marty

So next time you have nothing to do, rent one, and let me know what you think about it.

P.S. A friend of mine asked if I watched any movies this weekend that were not worth watching. Answer...YES. You can safely skip these.

1. Sublime (uncut)
2. Brick

Yes, I own these movies, but now that I know they suck, I may use them as gifts for people I do not particularly care for, or drink coasters. Which ever need happens to arise first. If you want to know more movies worth your time, just ask me. I am always glad to give a recommendation.

Just my lucky day....

I said I was going to go to bed. I guess I lied. Oh well, shit happens. I got to watching some trailers for some new indie films. There are a couple I want, so I decided to buy them. Of course, as is par for today. No luck. Apparently they can not be bought anywhere. (They are called "Away From Her" and "Waitress".) Just my luck, I tell you. So I decided to look for an old favorite of mine that I used to own on VHS many moons ago. Yeah well, strike three. I guess I am out. Oh, it is for sale all right. Only problem is that they are only for sale for region two DVD players. Region two covers Europe. South Africa. Japan. Oh, and do not forget Egypt. So in order to watch this wonderful movie, (It is called "Merry Christmas Mr. Lawrence" if anyone cares.) I have three options. Option one- I can move to a region two country and start a new life. Option two- I can spend four hundred and fifty dollars (roughly) to purchase a region two DVD player. Or, Option three- I can hack into my DVD player (after purchasing the kit to do it) and change a computer chip that will convert my DVD player into a region two player. Of course if I do this, I will no longer be able to watch any of the approximately two hundred DVDs I already own. I give up. This time I think I will really go to bed. I will try to wake up on the other side tomorrow, because today was just bad. Goodnight.

Not today...

The hubby and I just had a fight. It was the same old shit, just a different day. It always starts the same way. We are sitting around enjoying ourselves with friends, when out of the blue he says something that makes me look like a complete ass. I won't get into the details. There is no point. It is just that he only tells one side of what is happening. The side that makes me look like an ass, but has himself looking like the victim of my bitchiness. If they only understood the depth of the issue. The part that shows why I do the things I do. But to tell all of that would make him look bad, something I do not wish to do. So I generally bite my tongue. Not today. Today I admit, I kind of just lost it for a minute. I forgot all about my friends rule of "No fighting/yelling in my house." I yelled, and ranted and raved, and the hubby had the nerve to then say to me, "If you want to behave like this, just take your ass home." So I did. The hubby then followed me, about two minutes later. He walked in the door and said "Are you done now? Come back over and hang out with us." Now this left me with a very bad taste in my mouth for two reasons. First, because he had started all this shit in the first place. Second, because after having humiliated me in front of our friends, I was now expected to return because HE wanted me to. Not a fucking chance. Not today. So now I am going to start some dinner, take a shower, and make it an early night. Hopefully, I will be asleep before he gets home. I just do not want to deal with him anymore. Not today.

Bored...

I have been too tired to write much the past couple of days. No one reads what I write anyway. Not even the hubby. Ya know, I think I will go do some laundry, clean my room, and wash some dishes today. My house is nasty. You would think the hubby could do something other than just cook dinner. But he generally does cook. Last night he and my son designed a strange concoction. It looks disgusting. I mean really nasty. But it tastes pretty damned good. I am glad I tried it. I almost didn't. I didn't want to because of what they decided to name it. They called it "vomit and spuds". Not attractive I know. But again, pretty tasty. Well, that's all. I am going to clean now.

The job that almost wasn't...

I played hooky from work last night. I was exhausted from lack of sleep because of the early morning trip to the airport. When I got home from the airport, I did not have the luxury of being able to crawl back in bed. The two oldest kids had dental appointments. By the time we got them there, I was so tired I felt sick. (I guess the older I get, the less cool pulling an all-nighter is.) I called in sick to work at nine in the morning. I knew that without sleep, I would be totally worthless. Here is my mistake. I did not take the time to find the file that I was given during my orientation. I cheated, and I called the number to security that was on my caller ID. (I had called home from the phone in our security office at work just the night before.) So I decided to take the easy way, and call the security desk to ask for the call in number. They gave it to me, no questions asked. That was their mistake. I called in and got a recording. It went something like this. "Thank You for calling the (insert company name here) call in line. Please leave your name, supervisors name, department, phone number where you may be reached, and reason for calling in today....Beep." I did just that. I left everything they had asked for. And feeling confident that I had done my duty of informing the company of my impending absence a minimum of two hours ahead of my shift, I went to bed. And I slept. I got up to use the restroom. And then I slept some more. The phone woke me at nineteen minutes after five in the evening. It was someone from my company. Well, sort of. See my company has a few locations. Two of them sit on one property. Apparently they share more than just the ground they sit on. Apparently, they also share the same outgoing phone number from their respective security desks. They do not however share the same incoming number. Nor do they have a joint call in line. I did not reach the plant I worked for when I called. I reached it's sister plant. I informed the wrong plant of my absence. My plant thought I had not called. As soon as I was told of my mistake, I called the right plant. I explained what had happened to my supervisor. I do not think she believed me. When I got to work today, I went to speak to a woman in personnel, she is usually quite kind and helpful. Not today. I was informed that with no proof that I had called in, my absence was to be treated as a "no call/no show". I would receive three points for this offence. I immediately contacted the other plant, and told them of my predicament. A very kind lady there told me she would be happy to inform "our" people that I had indeed called. In fact, she would fax over a signed document to attest to it. Problem solved. Right? Wrong. I was told that I had made the mistake, and now I had to live with it. This seems woefully unfair to me. I almost quit. Right then and there. But to quit means to admit defeat. (Something I have never been good at.) I just couldn't do it. Tomorrow I will get to work an hour early. I will plead my case to our plant manager. I have been told he is a kind man. We shall see. I may quit yet. But first I will exhaust all options. If treating employees this way is company policy, I will inform them that I no longer wish to be part of their company. I hope they do the right thing. I did the right thing. I made a mistake, but I did call in as per instructions. When I realized my error, I promptly attempted to fix it. I freely admitted the fault that lies with me. What happens next will be their move. But I have been known to contact CEO's in the past when things were not running smoothly with their companies. I may just have to do it again. I will let you know what happens.. Goodnight.